I saw the light!

by Jacqueline Parker
(Disputanta, VA)

It was my 30th birthday September 24, 1986...My aunt was visiting me from New Orleans for the first time....I ran her around visiting and shopping all day. I went home was about to go to sleep when I felt a "POP" in my head and I told my friend that something was wrong with me. The room started spinning around and I remember falling down and CLUNK hitting my head and that's all. I rememebr waking and it was dark...I saw a light ...either I was moving toward the light or the light was moving toward me...not sure ...I saw that Beautiful "Bright" Light and I was wondering how my eyes could stare at it and not be offended by the brightness. I just remember me saying "WOW what a beautful light!!!....The light formed into a rectangle and ..there were 3 sections. The first being "My life in The past" My life began to pass before me very quickly..and I remember saying "wow it's moving so fast, Yet, I understand all of it." As I was reviewing it...If I had a question on ...What was I thinking when I did whatever it was that was doing. It would stop on that scene ..let me jump right back into the scene and see and feel what I was thinking when I did whatever it was that I was doing....This was amazing to me... Then it moved to the current ...same thing...Then the 3rd section allowed me to see what would have happened had I chose a diffrent course of action....and I was assured that I had made some good decisions in my life. I then moved to the left and I came into the presence of a huge group of people..as I came into their presence ...I noticed that I knew every face...and they were all welcoming me!....I looked to my left and I saw my dad and my brother whom had passed on 10 years before me...My dad smiled and I remember not being able to speak but talking with my thoughts and saying " POPS I'm not ready to go...isn't there anything that you can do about this?" My dad just smiled and I did not cross over to the other side......I went back over to below the area where I had just reviewed my life. I saw my mom sitting there and...a rewind of what she was thinking...My mom needed some money and she was sitting there thinking "Maybe I should ask Jacqueline" But she never did and she went without...I was living so high on my horse that I forgot that my mom may have needed help...and she suffered without...How selfish of me...then I saw Ed the man that offered to marry me when I had gotten pregnant by my kids father...The man that provided for me and my children for all those years and whom had never betrayed or left us ...until this very day. I saw... that I should set him free...I did but he would not go we were his permanent family. I had to put and itinerary together based on what I saw. I promised that I would raise my two children ..to know God. I would help mom out and not forsake her again. That I would open my heart unconditionally to our Lord to use me for his purpose. He has to this day used me for many reasons...I mean people were in awe at what came out of my mouth because there were somethings that I was telling them that there was no way I could have known about it unless there was some divine intervention! Every time he used me...It was like I was lifted up and floating...Then all at once every person that God wanted to contact through me seemed to be leaders in the church...Pastors, Bishops, Apostles,..etc. and they were in awe at what came out of me! Some of it I remembered some I only recalled a little of it. The Bishop's and Pastor's became my best friends and told me that they knew it was not me but the Holy Spirit speaking through me. I continue to be an instrument for his use until this day. When I awoke on October 10th ...even tho the Neurosurgeon told me ...That I had a 35% chance of surviving....I knew I was going to live and never did a thought cross my mind to the contrary...GOD IS REAL! and life is now so enjoyable...Depression???? no such thing! Life is to be enjoyed...God when reviewing your life ...looks at what was in your heart when you did whatever it was that was in question... So have a pure heart and Believe and Trust in your Lord and Savior. Yaweh